Who Am I? Homast Leondy?

The movie “Shutter Island” has disturbed me considerably thus far, especially since we stopped watching before knowing whether Teddy Daniels or Dr. Cawley is telling the truth. As of right now, I am not sure if Teddy Daniels really is mentally insane, or if Dr. Cawley recruited Teddy Daniels and is now trying to convince him that he is insane because Dr. Cawley wants to test some of his procedures on a former military man. The reason I am currently so paranoid is because it raises the question, am I really Thomas Donley? Maybe my true name is a simple anagram of Thomas Donley, my true name could be Homast Leondy. Maybe I just created this alter ego I named Thomas Donley in order to try to live like some student that I am not. It is possible that the life I am living right now is just one big hallucination. I might not be a hardworking student, I may actually be a scrub that never does his homework or never studies for tests. The more I think about it, that might not be so bad if it gets me out of this datasheet. But back to my fantasy life. Do I really have any friends? Maybe Alex Hurtuk is just my guide while I role-play this fictional story in my head. Maybe Alex is just like Chuck, and in a few short days I am going to figure out that he is actually working for Mr. Thompson. Mr. Thompson is just letting me play out this story that I have in my head because he thinks that it is the best way for me to realize that I am not in any AP classes at all. In fact, I am nowhere near smart enough to be in anything that requires so much intellectual thought. I have not actually filled out any applications for college. In reality I could not get into any colleges at all, my grades are far too low and I do not participate in any extracurricular activities at all.  Next year I am going to straight into the workforce. Maybe the dreams I have at night are real. The dreams about Alex Kreger stealing my journal that I have under lock and key in my closet and then posting them on his personal wiki leaks site. Ms. Serensky works for Mr. Thompson too. She is the one that Mr. Thompson has selected to help me understand the make believe story that I have invented in my head. She was instructed to show “Shutter Island” not because of her fondness of Leonardo DiCaprio, but because it will stimulate me to realize that I am a failure. She only wants to help me, she wants me to realize the stories that I once thought were real are actually only hallucinations. She wants me to realize that every class I have ever had with Mr. Maas is just a hallucination, just like how Teddy Daniels hallucinates about meeting Rachel. Mr. Maas is a fictional character; there is no one like him that possesses such a mastery over calculus, he is just someone I made up. I guess there is only one thing left to do…thank Ms. Serensky and Mr. Thompson. Thank you for pulling me out of my fantasy world. Unfortunately though since I do not really belong in your class, I will have to stop blogging. Well it has been fun while it lasted. Wish me luck as I now will probably be placed in a mental institution for hallucinating this elaborate lie about my own life as a teenager.