Am I Insane?

This started out as a comment on Kathryn’s blog post, but I quickly realized that I had too much to say about my own insanity. I have many habits and odd behavior that could be perceived as insane if a nurse watched my actions every minute of everyday. Nurse Ratched watches the patients’ from behind a sheet of glass and she carefully records her observations in her notebook. If Nurse Ratched were to follow me around for a day, I am afraid she would use her tyrannical powers to keep me in her ward for years, like she threatens to do with McMurphy. First of all, one of my odd behaviors is that after completing some assignment or something I am writing, I always click my mechanical pencil so that the lead goes back inside and it is not sticking out. This in itself is not unusual, but I do it multiple times and I always click it on the sheet that I just wrote on. This is extremely weird, I know. It is ridiculous and I do not really know why I do it. Unfortunately, this is a common pattern in my life; I unnecessarily do the same thing multiple times in a row. Another example of this is when I am working on something on the computer, I save the document two or three times after I finish. It makes no sense, because if the document did not save the first time, why would it save the second or third time? I do not know why I do things like this, I think it is just because I like to be extra sure that my document is secure before I move onto doing something else. Likewise, when I get out of the car somewhere, I lock it three or four times. Once again, I know it locked on the first time but I guess I just like to assure myself that no one will be able to open any of the doors. Also in relation to my car, when I get out I make sure that I turn off the lights. However, after doing this I still watch and make sure that the headlights go off after the thirty second delay. I know that I physically turned the lights off but I do not feel comfortable walking away while they are still on the thirty second delay. Another very odd thing I do, is that I always put my cell phone in my right pocket and my keys in my left pocket. There is no good reason for this, but I have to do it. I cannot switch it up because it just seems weird. If Nurse Ratched followed me around, she would be constantly scribbling notes to herself because I have so many insane mannerisms. After this self-reflection, I am more concerned than when I started. It really brought out everything crazy about me and it makes me seem more similar to Chief Bromden and his fellow patients. I think everyone has some degree of craziness and that if Nurse Ratched observed anyone closely for a day there would be some insane behavior. Luckily, we still exhibit less insanity than those placed in mental institutions.